Forbidden Love Love is a strange thing. It arrives in the strangest of forms, and at the weirdest of times. It holds the capacity to shatter everything, Or build things up so high they can never be broken. This love holds the capacity to build and shatter For with her I am elated, excited, The smile will never leave these lips But this love can shatter also Because it can destroy a bond with my family My family, I do not know how they will react They might hate me for holding this love They might disown me and disregard me They might throw away the daughter The sister, the niece, the grand daughter Because I hold this love For I am in love with the most beautiful of people She is kind, caring, smart, funny She holds me up when no one else can She holds me close when no one else can get near She talks to me when I dont want to listen She gets through to me when I wont let anyone else She is perfect in every way From her funny little comments, to her serious eyes From her goofy little grin, to her kindness of heart She is perfect She doesnt realize how much she means to me I want to build my life with her I want her to be my world But the controversy kills me Every time I think about what others think I die inside She sees it in my eyes, but I cant tell her this I cant tell her that if I had a choice, I wouldnt be with her I cant tell her that Im thinking I cant be with her anymore I cant tell her that I want to leave and never look back Just because I cant bear the thought of being a failure in my parents eyes These thoughts kill me To know that Im thinking of leaving her It destroys everything on the inside I want to push everything else aside I want to pull her into my arms And never let go I want her to be here now And I never want her to leave I want to look my mom straight in the eyes and tell her But I cant I want to look at my dad and tell him But I cant I want to look at her and tell her I cant be with her But I wont This life is not chosen It is not easy, and creates pain, disappointment, and failures It creates suicide, and violence, and self-destruction But more than this It creates happiness beyond belief It had created in me a world I never knew It is one where there is no obstruction, no disappointment, and no failures There is no death, no violence, no nothing Just peace, love, and pure happiness. It is because of her and this love That I have found this world in me.
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